Fearing Again

I am scared
I am small
Far beyond my comfort zone
I pray and
I dream
Stand shaking all on my own

I’ve made every move that I dared
I’ve stepped out do much further than before
I open my hands and painfully wait
No way to do less, no way to do more

Am I in the right scene?
What’s my next line?
It’s dark out now
Am I doing this right?
Are my tears in vain?
Are my worries unjust?
Is there still more I need
In learning to trust?

So much is at stake
One wrong move
One wrong step
And all I lose

Dancing on glass
Forward and back
To far, too close?
Too much, not enough?

I don’t know the next part
This is strange and foreign ground
I don’t know what else to do
Besides wait like always before

I’m not supposed to doubt
Or fear
Or worry
But I will never be strong enough to surrender without crying.
I am not big enough to dream without fearing.
The faith and love of my Lord is carries me through, because my faith quivers.

Everything strives to discourage me,
To tell me I hope in vain. But…

The Voice of Truth tell me
Your Blessings come in disguise.
So While I’m Waiting, Broken and Spilled Out,
I’ll Stand.
I Worship You
for You are My All in All.
I am a flower quickly fading,
but Great Are You, Lord.
Everything rides on Hope Now,
So, Jesus, Bring the Rain.
I Will Follow, No Matter What,
With Arms Wide Open,
Sweetly Broken, holy surrender.

By Hannah McMichael

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3 comments:

  1. LOVE this! Thank you for posting this. :)

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  2. Oh so beautiful! You have more than a talent, Hannah... you have a gift! I am SO enjoying looking over these poems of yours. Do you have a place where they're all archived together? *hint hint* :)
    Much Love
    Jessiqua
    memoirlifeblog.blogspot.com

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  3. Hi Jessiqua!! Thank you so much for visiting and commenting! :) If you scroll down to my tag cloud on the right hand side, click on the rather large "poetry" tag. :) Then you can read all the ones I have posted here! :D

    Thanks again!
    Hannah

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