And again. And again.
When will this circle end?
I keep trying. I keep putting myself out there for you. Giving you chance after chance to break my heart all over again. Why?
You've pushed me away again. How many more times do I let myself get disappointed and hurt?
My initial fighting response wants to rise up in my heart.
Fine. Be that way. Whatever.
I want to be angry at you. I want to give up and forever delete you from life somehow. I feel like that is exactly the attitude you have towards me.
But that's not who I am.
Believe what you like about me. Form your own conclusions of my life, my choices, my thoughts, because your assumptions will be all you have of me since you care not to find out who I really am.
Funny...I thought you already knew.
I keep trying. I will keep putting myself out there, hoping maybe someday you'll reach back.
Why? Because some part of me still believes you're worth it.
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